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Saturday, February 7, 2009
Favorite Words, Basilisk, To Do List / 12:33 PM
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Oh my god! I just finished watching Basilisk the anime! It's so sad how they all die in the end. Oboro and Gennosuke end up dieing together in a river. It's really sad and I felt tears gather up in my eyes. Ahh.. I wish they could've both stayed alive together, but the Koga and the Iga clans both fought to the death. My favorites were Yoshimaru, Gennosuke, Oboro, and the Butterfly girl who loved Yoshimaru. If only they just coincided with one another and got along it would've made things better. Who even started this vow of hatred in the first place to make them all bloodthirsty? The world is a sad place where there is ignorance, the ugly and beautiful souls. If only there wasn't such a feeling as hatred in the world or negative. If only.. It is not selfish is.. it? I know it is selfish to wish to hurt others in violent ways, it always is no matter how much you try to convince yourself that it isn't such a bad thing to hurt someone. It's better to try to understand one another and meet eachother halfway like how they said that in Fruits Basket. I'm happy to learn these kinds of things from anime and manga, it makes me feel a bit more spiritual peaceful by knowing these things. These are the kinds of things that you usually can't realize in everyday life that really do matter! But I remember a quote in this manga I read where that maybe it is wrong to wish people alive again, because then the ones who grieved for so long and moved on with their lives. What was their rememberance and happiness that was so meaningful meant for if it was overwritten with the dead living again if they were born into a world where there were feelings that could not be cleared from the ones who did wish alive? Is it not only selfishness to wish for them to be alive? Is it love or only to hurt the ones who did really love them if you did ressurect? You need to learn from deaths. The deaths of the Koga and Iga meant that you lost the ones you loved just because of a pact, but it is more about how you live with others around you. To live, to coincide.
Be the same in the state of mind and understanding?

Is it not better to remember and understand what you felt like as you went along making decisions? They say adults are selfish when they wish to go back and change things. It is better to accept and continue living. Live your life where you can make people happy including yourself. To forgive and move on. When I had met your again in this life at that time- Did I not forget that emotion of love I had held for you? Yet it felt like for a moment that I was neither a beautiful or an ugly monster wishing to grasp your heart? I had thought that you were an illusion. What did you see me as in the image of your mind at that point? I remembered it was a normal day. I had went downstairs to get chocolate milk because no one else would ever go with me. I am childlike and afraid of going by myself. It is only my fault for being selfish. In my mind I want to never be alone. Not again like that time. I cried and felt lost yet was stupid nonetheless to rely on people or friends or even others to lead the way to where I am supposed to be in life. "That time" I am reffering to is when I went to eat with my friends in elementary before I moved to go to HillSide. I was dumb. I trusted people too easily and didn't know how to think. I just believed every word and hid myself in a cage of illusion dumbfounded by trickery. I wished to be beautiful in the eyes of that beholder. I may be now to my love, my first love. Yet I do not believe anymore. Maybe I have become more smarter this time around because I think realistically and accept this pain. It is just like how Luis Mangandi said; "It doesn't matter whether someone else has pain more worser than yours. It is better to move on and accept it and forgive."

coincide definition

co·incide (kō′in sīd′)

intransitive verb -·cid′·ed, -·cid′·ing

  1. to take up the same place in space; be exactly alike in shape, position, and area
  2. to occur at the same time; take up the same period of time
  3. to hold equivalent positions, as on a scale
  4. to be identical; correspond exactly our interests coincide
  5. to be in accord; agree


To Do List
  • WalMart
  • Buy Snacks
  • Buy JollyRanchers
  • Buy PEEPS
Favorite Words :
  • madness definition

    mad·ness (mad′nis)

    noun

    1. dementia; insanity; lunacy
    2. great anger
    3. great folly
    4. wild excitement
    5. rabies
  • abominabledefinition

  • abomi·nable (ə bäm′ə nə bəl)

    adjective

  • nasty and disgusting; vile; loathsome
  • highly unpleasant; disagreeable; very bad abominable taste
  • surrender Definition

    sur·ren·der (sə ren′dər)

    transitive verb

    1. to give up possession of or power over; yield to another on demand or compulsion
    2. to give up claim to; give over or yield, esp. voluntarily, as in favor of another
    3. to give up or abandon surrendering all hope
    4. to yield or resign (oneself) to an emotion, influence, etc.

    Etymology: ME surrendren <>surrendre < sur-, up (see sur-) + rendre, to render

    intransitive verb

    1. to give oneself up to another's power or control, esp. as a prisoner
    2. to give in (to) to surrender to temptation

    noun

  • the act of surrendering, yielding, or giving up, over, or in
  • Insurance the voluntary abandonment of a policy by an insured person in return for a cash payment (surrender value), thus freeing the company of liability
  • absolution definition

    ab·so·lu·tion (ab′sə lo̵̅o̅′s̸hən)

    noun

  • a formal freeing (from guilt or obligation); forgiveness
    1. remission (of sin or penalty for it); specif., in some churches, remission given by a priest in the sacrament of penance
    2. the statement of such remission
      • decadence definition

      deca·dence (dek′ə dəns; also di kād′'ns)

      noun

      a process, condition, or period of decline, as in morals, art, literature, etc.; deterioration; decay

    incinerate definition

    1. in·cin·er·ate (in sin′ər āt′)

      transitive verb, intransitive verb -·at′ed, -·at′·ing

      to burn to ashes; burn up; cremate

    2. asphyxiate definition

      as·phyxi·ate (-sē āt′)

      transitive verb -·at′ed, -·at′·ing

      1. to cause asphyxia in
      2. to suffocate